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Friday, July 29, 2005

I got this joyous feeling in my heart that can makes you dance in joy ..in the street.

Imagine this , you got bad news that you have cancer, going to die soon and later, you found that it is Doctor mixed up information. OR, you have been though a major illness and now you have totally recovered.

hAPpINESS IS A STRANGE THING. Sometimes , you will need to overcome something before you destiny wil shed a light to your true happiness. You may think , I have got what I want and NOW i am happy ! THE TRUTH IS ..is that what u really want...ask yourself ..are u really happy?

A lot of people spend the money that they have not earn,
buy things that they don't really need it,
impress people they don't like.

I can say that I know better of what I am , what I like , and how to compliment of what I am to what I like to do. Anything out of this, is simple a path eventually lead to unhappiness......can be subconciously.

Today , the spattering of rain sounds like symphony of music orchastraia, the taste of plain bun taste like a piece of heaven, my pig room aka the messy junk of garbage collector, every song play I will like to sing etc etc ...ordinary things can just strike a chord in my heart

2day decided to stay blissfully at home as I got a bit of free time ,I juz went to kpo a bit ; exploring at ppl's blog to get a more familiar of normal civilian life and their voice out of wat is really happening in this happening world !

This is the blog I went : www.rockson.blogspot.com

Warning : Funny in a way if u can take in liberal and 'oop-fensive' words. Indeed , very ah beng but very insightful

For example he wrote " NKF is only the charity bully, but the newspaper company is the rich news bully and also the Gahmen (Government) mouth.
They whack the NKF so hard is not for any charity reason, is only because the NKF stupid and dare to sue them first what. They toolan the NKF boss so they call their newspapers and reporters and lawyer all hoot him together, like those gang fight grab parang and run after one fella, except the newspaper company gang is not use parang, but is use words."

- topic 'Singapore newspaper is like gangster'

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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

I can't be bothered, I am lazy , I am hungry , I am fat (really fat ) , people trying to pull me away from foods and more foods but I dun bulge ; people are non existant no matter how they look at me... becoz I only care about foods!!!!

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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Yawn ...wat a tired day of work.

My eyes hardly open and thanks god , 2moro is my off day !
Wat happened today ?
1) blood leaked out of the bag , out from the seal , seal (ok it is not my fault) is badly sealed ; blood spray out (like pissing lor) from the tubing after high speed centrifuge(without my notice) out to my jean , my shoe , floor and to table and to my glove. Gosh .. it is not few drop .. IT IS ONE BIG POOL.. hehe nobody saw it !
2) i know that I am a super individualistic performer. When I am serious , sky drop like a blanket covering me. I loved it when the whole lab/test is conquered by me ..
3) I am so s5tredded by the result of HCT . 60 to 70% of HCT
4)okok .... nothing new 2day ... wat a peaceful life .. juz thinking about the sushi buffet with wendy and the hospitality nite class 2moro. Anyway , I learnt how to open a wine bottle and appreciate the wine (I still like to drink red wine than white wine) ; cooking live demo frambe WOOOHHHH! ; serving fine dining . Just something new....

This .. is pure bliss of life.

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Saturday, July 16, 2005

From listening to Classical Relax FM 92.4 to Gold FM 90.5, which the latter FM is now hitting on me ! I heard this song over the FM 90.5 and it is so nice a combi love song...

Can't We try? By Dan Hill and vonda shep

I see your face cloud over like a little girls
And your eyes have lost their shine
You whisper something softly
I'm not meant to hear
Baby tell me what's on your mind
I don't' care what people say
About the two of us from different worlds
I love you so much that it hurts inside
Are you listening
Please listen to me girl

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try to understand
That it's love we're fighting for
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride
I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside

I hear you on the telephone
With god knows who
Spilling out your heart for free
Everyone needs someone they can talk to
Girls that someone should be me

So many times I've tried to tell you
You just turn away
My life is changing so fast now
Leaves me lonely and afraid

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try to understand
That it's love we're fighting for
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride

I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside
Don't let our love fade away
No matter what people say
I need you more and more each day

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride
Love you so much baby
Tears me up inside

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Thursday, July 14, 2005

Have u ever seen your handglove full of blood ..and dealing with 6 packs of 600ml of human blood at the same time . The table full of dripped blood, on the floor on the tissue ..on the scissor and everywhere u see...u see blood ..Platelet, plasma... those human gore stuff ?

ahhh...How i am thrilled with the fishy scent of blood. My heart pumping with adrenaline !!! Humm ...it should be taste nice...

I am facing those thing in my stern expressionless face like a murderer had finished his thrilling act of skinning a victim...blood spatter.. wipe away the last clue that can give away him to the justice. OR a professional life saving surgeon doing his patient brain operation critically ?

I realised that my job is imp. Any infocus act will result in switching wrong blood group to patient. Mati...

I felt so much control in what ever things I do now.
Last nite, I had read through some of the topics I wrote in my diary in sec days. I am indecision and procrastinating.It's a bad habit

Anyway, working in whatever profession...your quality work helps people in some way and other.
In my previous jobs, when people do appreciate your service, they smiles and feel contented...and me ... i can actually feel how they feel , as if , you were them. This is the highest level and secret of providing a high standard service. You must feel what they feel.

Now, if a person have accident etc.. losing a lot of blood , and his life is in critically dangerous situation. The surgeon operate on him , giving him bags of blood. The lst thing he wake..the lst thing he will see ..is the bag of blood hanging on top of him. How do u feel?
My mum told me that when she gave birth..it's a painful and blood losing like opening tap lor...she was given asestical .. the lst thing she woke up, is the bag of blood. She is wondering who is that wonderful person who had donated his/her blood and now running though me?

Blood to me ..is not gory substance. Not something that u seen after a bad thing happen. Not a signal of danger , not theaten ...not bad omen of losing a life.
It is a precious gift of life that a kind heart will give. An essential fluid that give others a second life..multiple life.

Blood is so wonderful.

Anyway , I got so much independent now.

At least I got silence. Ppl wil not bitch like mad abt anything(ok anything except me , juz get your ass outta my way)

President of France, Charles de Gaulle had said before "Nothing more enhances authority than silence. It is the crowning virtue of the strong, the refuge of the weak, the modesty of the proud, the pride of the humble, the prudence of the wise, and the sense of fools."

At least I am treated like a human being , not under scrutinizing by evil conspiracy of hawks . Like i am a preyer bunny. All record in black and white.So plain ...

nothing more meaningful (4 me ) than able to contribute to the quality healthcare area ...better life..with my adroit work.

Life is full of surprises.
Just yesterday, I was a cyber-bimbo.
And today, I am an cyber blog scribber.
One day, I was an abusable slave wrapped up by metal and fuel.
And the next, I became a sales bazz overworked underpaid staff and then a bloody lab officer.
I still feel like a traveller in transit.
Destination: Unknown.

After all, life is full of surprises

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

recently i am in a good ole mood .. hmm maybe it is back to where I belong and these place is where u find true and really sincerely nice ppl . They may not be expressive but they are the ones u can trust on. :)

This kind of true happiness is no amt of money can buy. NOt even SIN $2917

sometimes God like to play on us ... make ppl turn around and round and finally back to where u started ...without regrets.. It's destiny .

HSA !
I love HSA ! Although I am working with diff department from the last time ...dealing with drugs. This time round it 's getting more interesting .. it's massive human blood. A gift of life. i am dealing a gift from life. I truly gift to help to save the humankind.

They love me so much that they welcome me back as a position as lab officer ... flexible hours..gd pay ..
at least they treat human being like human being.

i love being a normal mortal again. It is not a bliss to be a super human or immortal being alike at all .

But I am sad in other way becoz I may not work for long .. I may be goin florida,US for 6 months or..less...or more

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Monday, July 11, 2005

It is such a tiring few days !

I am helping out at a bazaar sales from last thurs and gosh ! it is fanatic ! Cum top to toe....carry heavy goods and help out in sales , packing in and out and cashiering ...at the end of the day ... everyone is so zombies and so tired.
yah .. juz one more thing .. it is not true that victoria's secret lingeries is on 90 % off as no victoria's secret is on sale is a secret that to be exposed when the customer will turn up .
That's make me very upset coz in the ad it says so but coming to the warehouse is a waste of trip IF the customer are coming for the lengendary bras and panties. Very misleading. I dun mind working very hard and standing long hours from 10am (less than that) to 10pm (maybe more than that)and earn an ant's pay if the company is a real stuff and treat their employee right. I mean real stuff is when a company carry out what they promised. Not juz aiming for money in the expense of the welfare of the employees. It makes employees life a miserable hell when coming to customers complaints... The employers is like.. I heck care wat u . u juz do wat I do where I will stand there and look and screamm at u . So many jobs I had done , this is one of the bad employers i had ever work with....u can think how bad is it ..

I am working with a lot of uni undergraduates .. I am like .... if I chose JC that time .. I am may be one of them . Jobs for undergraduate is darm bad. A lot of ppl can't get a good job. Last time i used to think that a degree is a pass to good life..and that is when I am very young and jobs market look very bright for a degree student. Now,,, u must really perform very hard to earn wt u want... like low class slave ... cum top to toe.

look at the position u are doing and look at the things u got to do and look at your pay .. it is ridiculous.

Those ppl who had a lot of money and order the others to do things every sec the moment they rest , they think their money darn big and throw their tantrums around , showing atitudes.There is no cameradies. When they talk about resposibility, it just disguss me badly . I had enough abt resposibility . it seems that what have i learn is that of u have the money ...all the reaposibilities is on others .
money shift resposibility. 2 ppl got fired and 1 ppl volunteer to quit that bazaar sales.

if I am toking in their shoes ... I think ... it is their method of discipline.

enough of them .. but I am happy that I have exchanged few friends along the way ... hong yee, shi hui, Nur blah blah ..

maybe what i have really learn is how to run a profitable business
hate those despicable business people.
back to the days where i am still a student earning a low pay job
make me realised that $$ comes with hard work (especially this job)
master the art and tolerance of eating cup noodle for breakfast, lunch and dinner under hot sun and beside dirty bad lane and staircase and toilet with dirty river beside u.
This time, earning and viewing $$ gives me a second thoughts. This amt of $$ that I get for this job really really hard.. I ponder my jobs have been easy $$$ previously and should think twice b4 i leave.

NOt for this bazaar job again PLS !

one more thing .. I will or maybe leaving Singapore soon ..

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

lala song composed by me

lalalalalalalala
lalalalaalalala

alalalalalalaa (chords)
kakaakalalalala

lalalalaallalala
lalalalalalaaaaaa
aaaaa lallalalalal

repeat 10x

I am so happy today ! yeepee !
okok cloud shift again and again I am blow by the winnnnddddddd!!!!!!

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

Oh so sweet ! Wat shall I name her?

Anonymous scribbled this at 12:01 AM...

YAAAAAAAAAHHHHH! HAWAii neh !

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